imagine this scenario..

You can choose to know this person for a long time or just not long ago...
Both have had an argument,
because of strong ego, both are not giving ways.
Both turned to great time enemies.

Maybe few days later/ 3 years later/10 years and even 30 years later.
Both meet each other again, but still holding grudges.
Then soon enough, the last thing you heard about the person,
HE WAS DEAD.


Okay, after imagining this.
If you are still the one being alive, how would you feel? what would you do?
There would be tons of GUILT in myself, i am pretty sure. There would be lot's of " if i knew, i should have this..", "if i knew, i should have that..."

So now, the million-dollar question is..
WHY WAIT?
why do you like putting guilt within yourself to regret for the rest of the years you have left?
you could still be a teenager, saying, " I am still young."
Yes, you are still considered as a kid, but have you thought of yourself or your big-time enemy will be hit by a car or maybe drown in the sea?

Some would to say that, " yeah, sure. maybe tomorrow i will give him a ring."
why tomorrow?
things happen unexpectedly. maybe when the moment you stepped out of your house for a walk, a robber came and stabbed you. then, you finally stopped breathing?

Maybe you have not realized;
maybe you already realized, but still waiting for the tomorrow;
maybe you already realized, talked to the person but not forgiving the person...

How many enemies can you make in your whole lifetime?
How many times can you be born again?
How many days can you count for yourself to live in?
How many mistakes can we do?
How many regrets can we take?
How many times can we have a coffee with a friend, on the 20th of May 1996, 4.15pm?

Everyday, every moments, every friends come once a lifetime.
If you lose if, you lose it.
There is only one mom for you in this world, can't be two.
There is only one YOU for us in this world, there is no two..
There is only one life for each and everyone of us, there is no such as two..

Life is as weak as this.
Just a simple cut in any part of our body, will make us bleed.
Just a hit by a bus, we could be in a coma.
Just a whirl of the wave, we could be drown.

So, have you spoken to the person you hated so much, telling him that you're sorry.
It does n't matters if the person isn't sorry.
But, just know that you have done your part. And you have done it in a great way.


Life is short. It is just way too short.

Have you thought of these, lately....


Do you still remember the last time you have actually laughed at something, that the moment might give you butterflies in your stomach?
To be honest, I can not even remember the last time that something amused me and I laughed till the extend I could feel something in my stomach.. That happens quite often when I was much younger as a juvenile. So what has happened?

Did you remember thinking of your best friend who you haven't talked to for days, months and even years?
Where is my best friend? Have I talked to her lately? Have I actually called her and told her that I miss her? When was the last time? I wonder.. But I do doubt that distance should be the excuse.. It should be more of my incapability in making efforts. My fault.

When was last you have received a card hand written by a pen? I do not remember receiving any of them since the day I have left high school. But I do remember that I have wrote one to one friend for his birthday. It was something special, as it was hand written. Or not, it would have been just a text message sent.

Where was the last time you actually stepped on a grass, bare foot, gazing up to the baby-blue sky with fluffy clouds that might shape like a dog, a flower?
I have not done that for so long time, the only time I recall doing it was, when I was still in primary school. You know, kids' imagination like certain clouds would looked like an animal or a plant. Mere pure, innocence, without worries and responsibilities.

Can you still recall a time you could just chat and feel contented for the rest of day without alcohol? I know that I have. Most of the time.

You could say that the city could bring us everything, despite mother nature. Some would to say, says who there are no nature around us in the city; what is this rubber plant for?
You heard that? Rubber plant.
As much as I love the nature, but who am I to be able to make this city a better place by just placing rubber plants all over to pretend that we have everything, indeed.

Many times after the parties, parties I enjoyed; parties I do not enjoyed.. Hanging out with friends, enjoyed or not enjoyed.. I would always think of this, "Are these all on worth my time and youth?"
What is it am I to do? People always tell me this, "You could do some charity work at the orphanages?" Well, I did. But there is just something still not enough.

There was once me and friend having a serious conversation regarding, life.
At many points of our life, we tend to forget who we are and what is the purpose of living? Shallow-minded people would only have a mindset of, " Education - Work - Family - Kids - Retirement - DIE "
Is that all it? Would you just want to live and work your ass off, getting pissed with your kids, retire ,be a sick old dork and... die? End of everything.

We were empty handed when we first existed. So, what is there to fight and kill each other for fame and wealth? We were born naked and alone into this world. It is the same for death, naked and alone. Are the cash, car, house and property I have worth for me to fight with my fellow colleagues for sales, straining my braincells and body, having miserable explanations to my boss all the time..
Finally, in the end of the day. Working or not, being the most famous or not, having to be the most wealthy person in the world... We are still leaving this world. Left with bare hands without the car keys, left with a face without the earned name, left with no compartments to keep the cash have earned for the whole life..

There are many beautiful things in the world that we took for granted, often. They are just mere simple things that we do not need to work on to look at them and be happy. You would to ask, "What has this world left for us that we do not have to pay to be happy? Water is natural but we still pay water bills, isn't it?"
Now this is not too smart for a question. Pretty much.
Why don't you just step out of your house, just put your head up and looked into the sun.
We do not need to pay to look at the sun, don't we?
When it rains, try running out of the living room and feel the rain falling from the sky.
Be the first to wake up and gaze out the window and look for a tree. Try listening to the birds chirping, wishing each other "Good morning!"
When you see your dad or mum, smile at them and try to remember the feeling when they smile back at you.

So, when was the last time, you have ever considered yourself lucky to know that there are many things have been given to you to be happy in living for the rest of your life?

just a little update. that is my Chase baby

it was a great party. together with the celebrities and producers.



Front cover picture




Looking like a star?




With pretty Hannah




one of the crazy boogie mtv organizer




my great bro.  dicky dogg




in purpuish view





people people




voting time





THE PUSSYCATS GIRLS




Funny shot



Prize winner for Singapore





LEONA LEWIS



LEONA



COOL "bib-boxers"





it was an unforgettable night. seeing the stars receiving their achievements. funny part would be the producers gossiping the other celebrities. some of them even talked about their darkest secrets. like LOL. but of course. they were all drunk with boost.

 


 

 

this morning i woke up early. to attend my facial appointment. 10am it's considered really early for a day during holidays ya know. heh heh. it was good. 100 bucks included facial washing, hands n legs scrub, body massage,eye treatment n also eye n face mud mask.

but yes. i hate holidays now. it is boring. ha ha. i would rather stay in college doing nothing but yet there's something to do. but what i wanna stress for tonight is that.. it was rather surprising for me that. . one of my friend came asking things regarding relationship. i mean like.. i can't believe it was her. ha ha. never thought of it. i told her as a friend's stand instead of anything else. hoping that she would understand. i dint want to get too much involved. for i ain't wanna get anymore shit for myself anymore. NO MORE PLEASE.

not that i dont wanna help people. just that i have had too many incidents of helping people last time . like in the end getting myself into deep shit n people hated me. it was terrible. that is why sometimes i hate myself being like that. i have already knew the risk of "helping" but yet i do it. half of myselfi would remind myself not to do it. but the other half of me telling myself just help them. but in the end of the day  i still do it.
and i was always getting myself into deep shit.


I think i shouldn't be getting any shit for she has promised that she wouldn't. so yah. i will tag that down.
in the mean time i am waiting for someone important to come online. n he is frigging in china. i need him to tell me stuff !!
hahhh..